Thinspiration - Rachel Weisz

She's curvy and sexy and womanly and gorgeous. She has similar colouring to me, too.

My Virtual Model

Rose asked me to do another Virtual Model, but I found that unlike a real body, it doesn't change shape gradually with each pound lost. It stays the same and then suddenly jumps at certain thresholds. So although I have lost several inches and dropped a clothes size, my model looks the same. It'll change when I've lost another 8lbs.

Wednesday Weigh-In

I lost 2lbs on the Grapefruit diet. I'm glad to be losing weight again but I had thought that on crash diets like Grapefruit Diet you were supposed to lose much more than that in a week. I thought 1-2lbs a week was a moderate rate of weight-loss on normal long-term diets, more like Diet Delish which I have started again this week.

It's just so frustratingly slow.

However I am changing shape, which is pleasing. My UK size 16 jeans were far too baggy on me, so I bought two pairs of size 14 jeans from Marks and Spencer. M&S sizes are generous, and I probably wouldn't be able to fit a size 14 from most other shops, but I'm counting it as a goal reached anyway. I've dropped a clothes size. Hurrah!

Still Sticking To It

I'm still sticking to the Grapefruit Diet, and the Flylady programme.

Today my Flylady assignment was to "put out a hot spot" (that's a place in your house where junk accumulates). So I cleared off the table in the entranceway where letters and keys and other junk gathers. I've been doing it almost a week and so far I've got a clean entranceway table and a clean sink. I've also got sticky notes on my mirrors and not much else (well, I cheated and tidied up other parts of the house, but if I hadn't done that my house would have got worse in the last 6 days, not better).

I'm so impatient. I'm not losing weight fast enough and I'm not getting my house clean fast enough!

Cheating

For some reason I cheated a bit yesterday. I got my partner something nice for his lunch and I couldn't resist having a bit myself. So I went for a 5 mile walk afterwards to burn off the excess calories.

Apart from that I'm sticking to the grapefruit diet pretty closely.

Today's Flylady task is:

Are you hearing any of those nagging negative voices popping into your head? I want you to take a piece of paper and write down what you hear then I want you to turn those ugly words around and say something nice to yourself to negate the ugly words that they said.

I'm getting pretty fed up with this. How is this supposed to get my house clean?

Progress So Far

I'm on Grapefruit Diet day 3, and Flylady day 4.

So today I'm eating bacon and eggs, meat, salad, vegetables, and lots of grapefruit juice.

I went to a sort of meeting last night, and the host provided loads of cake and stuff, but I didn't eat any. I'm really proud of myself.

And I'm also supposed to:

• keep shining my sink
• keep getting dressed in the morning
• keep reading Flylady emails for a few minutes every day
• and write these things down on a sticky note and post them on my bathroom mirror and above my kitchen sink. Apparently this is the beginning of my Control Journal. The little notes are supposed to help me to remember the habits I am trying to establish.

OK. Got that. But I'm also going to tidy the kitchen and the bathrooms and clean the oven. I've been grilling so much bacon that the fat has accumulated in the grill pan and last night it caught fire and set off the smoke alarm.

Wednesday Weigh-In

I neither gained nor lost weight last week. I was expecting something like that because I cheated quite a bit early in the week, although I stuck closely to the diet later in the week. Never mind - I've now started my second week of grapefruit diet and I hope I'll lose at least a couple of pounds this week.

I'm still doing Flylady, the system for getting your housework under control. I'm on day 3 now so I'm supposed to:

• keep my sink shiny


• get dressed first thing in the morning instead of slobbing around in a dressing gown


• read the copious Flylady emails for a few minutes every day

Unless day 4's task is "get bloody moving and pick up all the crap" I can't see how this is going to result in a tidy house, so I've "cheated" (you're specifically told not to jump ahead and do more) and I've tidied all the upstairs of the house and the living room and I've done all the laundry. The hallway, kitchen and bathrooms are still waiting to be done. Maybe once I get it all tidy i can use the Flylady system for keeping it tidy, but it's going way too slow for my liking so far.

Much like my weight-loss.

Flying

Because I gained weight last week, I cheated a bit on my Diet Delish at the beginning of this week and ate a few things I shouldn't have. Not a major binge or anything, just a couple of cheats. Mainly alcohol and chocolate. I pulled it back together later in the week and the last few days have been cheat-free. So I don't know what will happen at tomorrow morning's weigh-in, but whatever happens I will start Grapefruit Diet tomorrow and aim to be cheat-free all week.

As well as trying to lose weight I have also started a new programme to keep my house in better order. It is called the Flylady system, and it's all about proceeding in "babysteps", not trying to do everything at once. Sounds good.

Today I was instructed to clean my kitchen sink. Nothing else, just clean my sink then kick back and relax. hey, I can do that!

Wednesday Weigh-In

I gained one pound on the grapefruit diet. I'm not very impressed with that.

But looking at it nother way, in the last 2 weeks I lost 4 pounds, so that's good. Maybe the 5-pound-loss last week was an abnormal fluctuation, and this week I "really" lost weight, but it was hidden by the strange drop the week before.

I'm back on diet delish for a week then I'll give grapefruit another go, but if this happens again I'm looking for another crash diet.

In other news, I took my measurements and found:

Bust = 37 inches (lost 3 1/2 inches)
Waist = 34inches (exactly the same)
Hips = 43 inches (lost 1 inch)

So all the weight is coming off my boobs and little or nothing from anywhere else.

Feeling a bit fed-up.